And I'd melt the world with my eyes.

Just look at me. Really look at me. I'm growing up, look at me. Today I wrote my last exam for this semester. I have a paper still due, but the fact of the matter is, I wrote my last exam. I thought of being in middle school today. I thought of being told what to do, when to eat lunch, when to go to class, when to go outside, when to go inside, when to run, when to sit still, when to be quiet, etc. That's great. It really is, but if you really analyze it, you notice that its very structured. High school is not that much better, they still structure your life. Don't get me wrong, structure is very good. School does not prepare you for the real world. there. I said it. SCHOOL DOES NOT PREPARE YOU FOR THE REAL WORLD.
Because I'll tell you right now, being in college, people don't tell you what to do, when to eat lunch, when to go to class, when to go outside, when to go inside, when to run, when to sit still, when to be quiet etc. They don't. Its scary when you first get out there.. where there is no structure. Because its up to you. This is what being an adult is like. Of course there is commitments, bills, obligations. But the definer of being an adult, is making your life structured. Its not a teacher, or a principal or a boss telling you. Its you. and the question is.. Do you have what it takes? Can you say that you are ready to make your life structured.. because I know I wasn't. Me in charge of my life? It sounds scary. I have to arrange time to do schoolwork, to work, to get to work, to get home, to spend time at Youth, Church, with friends, and time for me. I will admit, I have been a crappy friend, and a girlfriend. I can only blame myself. I am not used to structuring my life yet, and it will take some more time. But I have finally realized why this is so difficult for me. And I hope this will prepare you for what is to come once you throw that cap in the air, and you are no longer a student at a high school.
I believe it is now time I change my title to my blog, since I am no longer a high school graduate, I am a college go-er!

Cheers.
Kyyyylie. ♥