How do I love thee? Let me count thy ways.

Its when you let me hold your pinky with mine. I know you hate it, but you let me do it anyways. Its when you trace away hair from my face. Its how you kiss me. Its when you hug me. Its how you whisper in my ear "I Love You". Its when you tell me things about your day. It how you get so excited to see me. Its how you took me to science world. Its how you come to youth church with me. Its when you smile at me. Its when I see you smile, how it makes me smile. Its how I can talk to you about anything. Its how we fight, but we can never stay mad at each other for long. Its how we plan things together. Its how when you think, you look absolutely adorable. Its how you smell so good.
I Love you so much.

Whoa! Hey, hey-Oh what a ride

What a perfect sky to frame

Your hazel eyes

I'd scream on the inside

But right now it feels like

I'veBeen tranquilized

Oh, what a fool am I

To be tongue-tied

Sitting next to him

The princess and the passenger

You touch the rain and suddenly

There's waterfalls

Now every day is something more

Worth fighting for

Baby, you make the sun shine down

You make the sun shine down

You can paint the darkest clouds

And turn them into rainbows

You take your secret smile

The one that turns me on

Hey boy, you've been what I've waited for

Feet back on the pavement to the Basement

On the bright side of the road

Fumbling my lines to a lazy cat

On the step outside her door

She opens up

And I'm in the Polaroid

Standing next to him

The princess and the passenger

Touching the rain and suddenly

There's waterfalls

Now every day is something more

Worth living for

Baby, you make the sun shine down
You make the sun shine down
You can paint the darkest clouds
And turn them into rainbows
You take your secret smile
The one that turns me on
Hey boy, you've been what I've waited for

On a day like this when the worldIs elevated

On a day like this when I know just

Why I waited

On a day like this when the world Is elevated

On a day like this when I know just

Why I waited

This is harder for me than it is for you.

Im sorry Im happy, when your not. Im sorry you cant find anyone like me. I told you, you were making a mistake. Im sorry that im everything you want, and you cant have me. Im sorry it will probably never work out like we thought. Im sorry I told you it would. Im sorry that i dont feel the same way about you. Im sorry I cant give you hope. I am sorry that I have moved on. Im sorry that it was for real, and not for revenge. Im sorry that everytime we talk you love it, and I feel guilty. Im sorry im prettier. Im sorry I understood you better. Im sorry that this is hard for you. Im sorry that i was the one and you blew it. Im sorry that you feel like you need to please, because you care. I should of told you that you wouldnt be happy with anyone else. But for all the hurt that you caused me, and put me through im sure what you are going through is not even close to what I went through. So this is okay. You will be okay. You will find someone decent. You will be fine. You just could of had Amazing, and you and I both know it.

This is as quiet as it gets

hush down now go to sleep

we were once perfect me and you

will never leave this room

H H H Hush you color my eyes red your loves not live its dead this letters written itself inside out again when rivers turn to roads and lovers become trends H H H Hush this is where it ends

this is the calming before the storm

We’ve been here like before

this absolution is always incomplete

its always bittersweet

H H H Hush you color my eyes red your loves not live its dead this letters written itself inside out again when rivers turn to roads and lovers become trends H H H Hush this is where it ends

I wont make a sound so you don't wake don't wake don't wake you don't wake you don't wake

Hush you color my eyes red your loves not live its dead this letters written itself inside out again when rivers turn to roads and lovers become trends...H H H Hush this is where it ends you color my eyes red your loves not live its dead this letters written itself inside out again when rivers turn to roads and lovers become trends H H H Hush this is where it ends

This is where it ends

Have you ever tried these?

I am officially hooked! It started when I saw this girl in one of my classes drink them. Everyday she would drink a different one. I never thought I would try them, just because it seems like a waste of money to be buying these. BUT I went into Save On, and saw these on display. I decided to give one a go, So i chose the hot pink one on the right of this picture. Its flavor is strawberry and kewi with vitamins A and Leutin. You see each drink has different vitamins in them. I now am consistent with buying the XXX one. With fruits such as acai berry, blueberry and pomegranite, It provides you with your daily "happiness" boost. I love them, and I encourage all of you to try one of these. They are REALLY good. ;)

You didnt have to do that.

I have a few "you didnt have to do that's". On Thursday morning, I was bussing to school. It was dreary out, and I had gotten off one bus, to get on another bus. As I was running to the bus stop I saw it pull up. I ran faster, but my short stature impairs my running abilities. I heard a shout say "Hold that bus!" I looked around not seeing anyone. I was confused thinking I had imagined it, I kept running. Another shout "Hold that bus!" And then I saw him, an older homeless man. sitting at the base of a tree, watching me run, knowing I was catching that bus. I ended up not catching the bus, some bus drivers can actually be quite cruel. As I waited for the next bus, I thought about this man. I prayed to God, and thanked him for this man. Although I didnt catch the bus, it was what I needed to make my day. It wasnt much, but it meant alot. The generousity I felt was exponential, and I felt very grateful for his concern. He didnt have to do that!

Yesterday, my brother and sister, Emily and Lance had their 6th birthday party. I woke up early, and went to their swimming lessons with my parents. I got ready afterwords, and was ready to head to the hall they were having the party at. Donavin had been running late, his mom had left her keys in a store they had been at. It delayed him, and he ended up coming later than he was supossed to. Turns out that he had been at the store with his mom to pick out presents out for Emily and Lance. And when I say presents, hmm.. wow.. well I dont mean just one. He ended up missing buses, waiting for a bus that didnt show, and ending up catching one, an hour later from arrving in coquitlam. I opened the door to greet him, and I could tell he was pissed off. He came into my house cussing, and freaking out. He had had a bad morning, and was showing it. I kissed him and hugged him and tried to calm him down, but I knew he just needed to vent. So as we walked to the hall, I let him tell me every detail about his morning. We talked about his mom helping him find presents for the twins, and how she had left her keys in the store, and how he had missed buses. At the end he seemed cooled off. phew. We ended up playing with the kids at the birthday party, entertaining them with games of duck duck goose, and freeze. They had cake, and bagels, and cupcakes, and chips. Cinema Zoo arrived and put on a fabulous show with tarantulas, rats, mice, chinchillas, snakes, stick bugs and more. Once home, Donavin watched as the twins opened his presents. He got them, numerous coloring books, clips for Emily's hair, hulk books for Lance, adding and subtracting boards with erasable pens, shirts for Emily, pads of paper for Lance, and more.. and when I say more.. I mean SO much more. I on the other hand have not and will not be getting them anything because they have already gotten so much at their birthday party, and money is tight right now. I just stood there as tears came to my eyes, thinking wow.. he didnt have to do that. It means alot to me, because in a weird way this is how much he loves me. He loves me enough to not only get just one present for the twins, but to get them a gigantic bag full of goodies. He didnt have to do that. He really didnt. But the truth of the matter is he did. And I love him for that.

hit me baby one more time ♥

Officially 2 weeks 22 hours 27 minutes until I can see Britney Spears lipsinc and perform seductive dance moves. (well from when I started this post) Although she has been given a bad rep, because of her "freakish" freak outs I think she is pretty cool, and I am really excited to go and see her perform =]

she said she was pretty, I thought she was beautiful.

Can you tell me where this confidence is coming from?
I think it had been there the whole time.

all there was to clean their hands was sanitizer.

shave me bald
hold my hand
I am lost and I need your help.
I AM LOST AND I NEED YOUR HELP.
I dont want you to do it for me
I want you to help me through it.
I dont think I was ready for this
I dont think I was ready for any of it.
How do you grow up, when you dont want to?
I need something to numb me,
to take this misery away
to make it all better,
like a bandaid for life.
I am so angry,
so so angry,
I am so torn,
So broken.
You have done it.
Thank you.
But its time I need your help.
please.

when harry met sally.. sally was confused..

My mom and dads wedding song is "Everything I do" by Bryan Adams. Everytime I hear it I get tingles crawling down my skin. Maybe its because I was in the wedding party, as a little flower girl, or maybe its because it reminds me of their love for each other. I had always thought that I would have that song as my wedding song, sort of like a tradition passed down. Besides turning 19 this year, It hit me that in the year 2010 I will be turning 20 years old, and I am more confused about everything than I was in highschool. Like, do I really want to be a teacher? I love Donavin, but do I really want to be in a relationship right now? What should I do for my 19th birthday? go out drinking or have a small gathering? All these things are adding up and I feel like they are building walls around my soul and personality. I am no longer the Kylie I once was, I dont feel her presence anymore.
oh hullabaloo.

would you like some lettuce with that salad?

2 years ago this month I became a blogger. Technically I haven't been a blogger for the full 2 years because I went about a year of that forgetting I even owned one. Starting up again last year made me really happy. Its therapeutic in a way to be able to just write whatever you want about whatever you want and have people you dont know read it. I like to keep it updated for those whom I dont see everyday, and enjoy writing and putting up pictures. I would have to say though that my favorite is coming up with my blog entry titles. I like thinking up random titles. It satisfies my undying need to be random and unique at the old age im at.
So as I bow and curtsey, I thank you to those who read my blog.
It wouldnt be half as much fun without you.
kylieeeeeeee ♥

cant you see that im drowing with plastic over my head?

This year I have made it a priority to lose weight. I dont drink pop anymore. I go to the gym. I watch what I eat. This is all good, except the fact that I struggle. Going to the gym is amazing, I love working out, it makes me feel good. To the point where I could honestly go 1-3 times a day. Working out hasnt been that hard for me, now, and through out my life. I can exercise and not complain. Its the food part that I am struggling with. There are alot of good foods that are healthy for you. For the most part I have good control over what I eat, how much fat, how many calories etc. But for the life of me, im not seeing the results. I know it happens over time, but I have been doing this since January. I know I eventually will see results, and until then I need to be patient and understanding that my body will eventually look the way I want it to look. I had been looking for motivation, something that would kick my butt in gear. And I am happy to say I finally have that motivation. I just need to keep thinking of it and I will be determined to follow this through.

working hard.
Kylie

did you steal my money flower?

wasnt there a character on Bambi that was named flower?
you think your so good looking flower.
you do.
i know it.
stop smelling good and looking good and being good.
stop stealing my money.

after the boys of summer have gone.

I should never think What's in your heart What's in our home So I Won't
You'll learn to hate me But still call me baby Oh Love So call me by my name And save your soul save your soul Before you're too far gone Before nothing can be done I'll try to decide where She'll lie in the end I ain't got no fight in me In this whole damn world Tell you to hold off You choose to hold on It's the one thing that I've known Once I put my coat on I'm coming out of this all wrong She's standing outside holding me Saying oh please I'm in love I'm in love Girl save your soul Go on save your soul Before it's too far gone And before nothing can be done 'Cause without me You got it all So hold on Without me you got it all So hold on Without me you got it all Without me you got it all So hold on Without me you got it all So hold on Without me you got it all So hold on Hold on

the sun was shining, but I didnt feel the warmth.

So my hair is half straight. its raining hard outside. My grandparents & asian cousin are coming to my house today =] Im happy. Im going to the Britney Spears concert && Dane Cook show. My summer is in a month. will I ever get my license? Josh might be staying 2 years =[ I miss Tessa. I cleaned my room, FINALLY. Im going to start tanning. My body is changing. My mere's birthday is coming up. My future is fast approaching. My phil class was cancelled, stupid robert. I worry about things I cant tell anyone. I love working out. this fast car will get me really far. I miss Alex. gordito. friendship makes life easier. my hot chocolate fell on the ground, and I still drank it =] do you know what my real name is? Frisky, I love you ♥ lets be friends. I owe lots of money. i watched 16 candles last night. I made dinner for my family, it was so good. Once upon a time a girl named rachel had long hair. I miss my long hair. stop the screaming. this is nonsense. if were adding to the noise, turn off this song. why do we face heartbreak? stop cheating on your husband. I miss snortney. Im too nice sometimes. I love my daddy. Emily && I are going to have a sleepover. lets play rockband. I love starbucks. The elantra touring is such a nice car. especially the light blue one in the showroom right now :) try to listen with your ears closed. try to dream with your eyes open. We talk to ears, God talks to hearts. I crave sushi like no other. hold my hand. watch walle with me. waaaalllleeee, Evvvvaaaa. I miss that day. We are best friends. We are family. I was so happy. do you know my name? lets drink that water up. cam thinks im going to name my daughter after him "break the news kylie". My heater doesnt heat high. lets buy that cd. lets leave mcdonalds on the car. lets laugh. my ring means friendship, if i break it... well.. i will be one of 4. dont stand around. dance around. tell me im beautiful when i dont feel it, not when i do. kiss me through the phone. take a chance, let your hair loose. let it grow. I think I need pajamas. hm.. wheres your picket fence love, and hows that shiny car? did it ever get you far? Hi im Kylie, batteries included.be an organ donor. use shampoo and conditioner. wow. can you let me know when you will be ready to be okay? go get help, you need it. shouldnt drive a big truck if you cant park it. sunshine raindrops. be my guinea pig. im having sushi for lunch =]

and thats all she wrote.

Kylizzie mcguire.

whatta ya say we leave for California? we can drive all night and make it by the morning♥

`and it was like all of a sudden,

I was ready to be happy.

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Why do leaves fall. Im not sure, maybe they are infatuated with the ground.

Shelly Freeland had grown up knowing the rules, but she also made her own. With long blonde hair, and dark blue eyes, she could get anyone or anything she wanted. For years teachers would give her higher grades, allow classes to be skipped, and she never once was given detention. All the guys at school, and in town felt their mouths drop open everytime she walked by. Everyone in the small town of Keyne knew who she was and what she was capable of. She had ways of making you feel like you were worth nothing more than laundry lint, although at the same time she could make you feel like you were worth a million dollars. It was hard to describe, but Shelly could do it. Shelly has the town eating out of her palm, until she meets the new exchange student from Brazil, she soon realizes that she is incapable of making him see her the way everyone else does. He is not fooled by her charm and soon finds himself as a target. Shelly knows what she wants, and she will do anything in her power to get it, It just so happens that who she wants is not interested: Taber Reid.

A story I am writing.. should be good..

kyyyylizards. ♥

Nutella is super amazing. Thought I would let ya know :)

This week has been quite eventful. I am willing to share it with you.

Last week my great grandma passed away. I was sad and angry. Sad because she was gone, and angry because I didnt get to say I love you & good-bye. On Tuesday, My family and I went to the Island for the funeral. It was great to see my family, whom I havent seen in 2 years? I cried, I conversed, we said our good-byes and headed home on Wednesday night. Thursday I did a vow of Silence. The goal, was to not talk for 24 hours. I made it until 4:45 Thursday afternoon. On Friday I went to the gym, and then Britnee came over and helped my mom make "yummies". We took them to the church where we had a small group event. a grade 7 girls ALL NIGHTER. :)
It was fun I enjoyed it. Saturday Donavin & I went to the library to get some homework done, and then came back to my house to have dinner, and watch a movie. Today is Sunday. AND I am so tired. So So So tired.
anywayss.love
k