crystal clear

you never expect it. just like a little puppy is so lost. watching airplanes fly by. its all what you make it. and im soooooooo unsure of everything. im on the hook. i know it. but i know im also so cherished. you would think things would be crystal clear. things should be crystal clear.

but life never works that way.

ever.

wow

wow
is
all
i
can
say.






WOW.

heart problems

this flattery is sickening.
i cant excuse the fact that im already loving.
there is already love in my heart.
the heart wants what the heart wants.

i cant control it.
i am kate winslet on the titanic.

oh boy.

where have you been?

so unsure of where I stand.
where do i stand?
what am I?
who am I?
this vulnerability is killing me.
i dont think i should care this much.
you dont.


i dont care. i love it.

This, That, and the Other.

on days such as these.

wow.

something in the way you move

as much as i want it.
the scariest thing
is knowing that
when you say
those three words
you mean it.

the battle

Time is just so precious lately.
although i feel as if i have so much of it.
its so easy to get in the same routine.
day after day
what is new
will become old
and life just keeps revolving around the sun.

today i saw that i was no longer her friend on facebook.
i get it.
i understand.
so im not pissed
or angry
and im not necessarily hurt either.
but im not happy about it.
it doesnt bring me joy.

the decisions we make.
cant always be taken back.
yes second chances happen
even third chances.
but to know what is good for you
and what the heart desires
are two different things
its the battle between the heart and the brain.