cherished.

you give me hope. the ones who are reading this right now. having you read these words make me feel like my voice is important, even if its silly and not rational.

when days are dull, you put a smile on my face. know this please. because there are days, when i cant even think of one person whom i could tell all my secrets to. who i could tell all the thoughts that boggle my head. where are you? where i think, who could possible care about this. please note: this is not a sign of weakness, not a sign of depression, but a positive ambition i have to make more friends. my perception of people has changed drastically. i see beauty in every living being. even those that hurt, harm, abuse those around them. there is beauty in the broken. you have to be strong to see it. so when you go to judge someone for having a certain type of sweater on, or how they act. dont. just dont do it. because those people dont need to be judged. they dont need to be.

may your day be peaceful and full of love.

♥

hope.

baby please dont go.
if i wake up tomorrow will you still be here?


gosh.
i miss you guys.
so much.
life was not judged
just fun.
bring back those memories.

♥

i personally would like to learn about Voltaire.

there once was a dream, where everything was good.
no one could hurt the thoughts that came.
no one could pronounce death to those who did not fit.
in love there was many.
but this was just a dream.
and many did not dream this dream.
they held hands with villians.

i say, if all is lost.
then let it be.
for it is not me who is lost
it is the hands that are held
with notions of lies
we are all here to discover
the life that is not ours
some may struggle,
some may fall,
but with all of the songs to sing,
we will sing His.

leave me in a tizzy.

i want to show you off.
but lately ive been feeling
that time moves slow,
that things happen.
i made friends for a reason.
where will they take me?
nobody knows.
nobody knows.
do you even know?

its okay.

Everything is magnified to an extreme lately.
and no one cares.

no one cares.

birthday bliss.

It was my birthday yesterday, and I have to say, it began like any other day. My sister was yelling at me to hurry in the shower, me getting ready for school. Nothing was too different. I had class in the morning, and then had a 2 hour break before my next afternoon class. My idea was to go to the library and study, and print a paper that was due. My friend Elaina talked me into getting food first, when I think back now, everyone was kind of acting weird, and up to something, but at the time I was completely oblivious to what they were doing. I didnt think too much of it, and proceeded to buy my lunch. We then went to a different sitting area and I turned the corner and had all my friends starting singing happy birthday to me. They had bought me this cake for me for my birthday. Ice cream -- my favorite!! I was so stunned and shocked. I started to tear up, it was the sweetest thing. I have only known these people for a month and they are already treating me like a best friend.

I am so blessed.

After getting out of school early I went home and spent time relaxing, I started my long list of thank yous to the facebook posts, and painted my nails. Then it was time to open presents with the family. My sister Emily brought this huge sign out, what a sweetheart. I was spoiled from my parents with a bunch of really great and much needed gifts. I love them. I again, am so blessed.  

I then went to dinner with some really great friends. Had some good food, good conversations, good quality time. I then, was surprised with this amazing dessert. YUM.

I spent time with the girls after, and just had chill time. I loved every minute of my birthday, and cannot recall having that kind of feeling on my birthday for a very long time. I am now 22 years old. And I wish I could come up with something clever to say about that age, but I just really cant. I am blessed to still be alive and breathing, and to be surrounded by many many people who love and care about me.

My 22nd birthday was the best.

♥