hello, hello.

for this to make sense you would need to understand the situation that has arose. but since i do not want to have the situation in writing, i will just talk about it as if you were to know.

its not even a feeling of attraction.
well not in the way you think.
its needing to know more.
there have been few whom have intrigued.
i guess ill wait.
but i hold on to things that dont mean anything.
i truly do.
glances, looks,words.
im a fool.
i should actually save myself and go dive into a dumpster and stay there.

i thougth about leagues the other day.
its funny, ive never thought i was out of someones league, or that they were out of my league.
but could i be a little minno when really you are looking for full on gigantic salmons?
ive lost my mind my friends.
i dont even know who i am anymore.

come back. come back.
where is that girl who was not afraid to ask questions?

shes still here :)

if this is even out there.

there have only been a few times in my life where i have felt it to be dream-like or movie-esque. where what is happening could never be real unless it wasnt. i thrive on those moments. where i find myself places, and i question how it all happened, how its really happening. Its in these moments that I know I am exactly where I am meant to be, that the glory of God is so magnificent. I think I try to rush God, and once I feel like I am onto his plan, I get excited and jump to conclusions. while i dont know the full plan of what God has in store for me, I do know that I was supposed to be where I was this past weekend, that I was supposed to learn what I did, and I was supposed to feel how i did. Now, its just a matter of praying, and making sure i dont get too excited, I find when I get too excited and try to jump the gun, God changes my path. whatever that amazing Lord is up to, im thrilled.

lets just pray for patience.