i want to write something sweet like, if all i get in life is this one moment then ill be content with the rest of my life.
i guess its like losing someone you love in a car crash, or some other tragic accident. one minute youre good, the next youre not.
as girls do, i replay every single aching, beautiful moment of everything. even as i write this i shed tears because everything was so imperfectly perfect. I dont know what went wrong, and i take full blame for the mystery.
every other before you was a joke, something to laugh about. the thought that i could feel those feelings before is so false.
and i feel so lost, and i look at people, thinking they must have felt this at some point. still living, still breathing. and everyday i think of those words, and i try to smile because you said to. but ive got nothing to show. a lion king dvd? tater tots? silly places we went. in the saddest time of your life you made me the happiest. who can ever say that. things happen for a reason.
but all the sour candy cant compete with the taste in my mouth.
my heart is so crushed, and im all out of tape and glue.
im lost without you.
