im not going to pretend like i dont care. like im not super stoked that you're talking to me more often. im doing my best. but its coming pretty easy. because even though i do care, i dont really care. life is too short. and i know that everything happens for a reason. thats all im going to say. i asked you if your tattoo reminded you of me. and you know what you said? nothing. i dont know if you even read this anymore, but what im getting from your lack of contact is that the friendship we had, it meant nothing, it wasnt important to you. you my dear are a pretty good actor. i dont know why, i feel like im constantly holding my breath. walking on egg shells. waiting for something really bad to happen. im not living. im existing. there is a big difference. now dont start thinking that im depressed or just miserable. no no. im just, not being challenged. I want God to push me past the limits i have placed on myself. go do something crazy Kylie. feel again. let yourself get excited. feel passion. cry. laugh. scream. smile. im going camping this weekend. and im interested in how its going to play out. not that i dont think it will be fun, but i have a tendency to compare and contrast. ill try my best not to. dan is graduating. she is growing up. she is a young lady. a young lady. i remember always being jealous of her. she is so strong willed. such an awesome chika. i am so proud of her. so so proud.
until the next time. lady.
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