broken strings came on at work today, and i just sat there and tried to be okay with where things are at with us. like i actually dont know what happened. i cant even remember. i dont even know where my head was at. i mean, i was probably up in the clouds. far from this earth. trying to figure things out. trying to reach goals. but why did i let this happen. that was never my intent, never what i wanted. Even though i dont fully want to believe it, the only understanding i can come by is that it was meant to be. that what happened, happened for a reason. id like to think i know the reason. id like to think it was because i was meant to make new friendships out of this heartache. but its still a sore spot in my heart. and i honestly think it will forever be. im not quite sure how i can mend the things that were said and done and make them better, besides just move forward. i think my own therapy is to try and put as much space and time between me and that time.  all i can say, is im not that girl anymore. ive changed. i have different goals, ambitions, wants, desires, loves, heartache, laughter. im not saying goodbye, because goodbye is final, and who knows. we might need to meet up one time and connect again. where we are in different places in our lives. but for now, i say so long. so long to the long nights. so long to the memories of laughter and pure bliss. so long to the ever lasting love for you guys. so long to the times we cant remember. so long to the times we do remember. so long to those people.