Lord let me be free. Let me be gone. Let me leave this place so i can appreciate it. I really dont know what just happened but im pissed. yep you read it. im pissed. thank you mr. idontcare. You gotta love ex-boyfriends. they know you. well. I love venting to them. its great. im sick as a dog. i have a pile of tissues on my floor dying to be cleaned up. but whats the use? there is going to be a new pile soon. really, how much snot can be in ones nose? I have this fear. its like im falling, and I have no one to catch me. physically. I have friends yes. and spiritually. I have God. but. romantically. I dont. i miss it. I miss not having to wear makeup, or caring what I wore because it didnt matter. I was beautiful in his eyes no matter what. I miss not having to talk to other guys, not having to flirt. because I was comfortable. and now. now that its done. that its no more. I am uncomfortable. I have to try again. ugh. trying sucks. haha. Im planning on buying an ipod touch. IM SO EXCITED. that means i actually will have an ipod. because for the past.. 6 months? i havent had one. its been gross. but soon. I miss certain people. seeing certain things. I had a dream the other night. In this dream I was in a house. a house that once I was awake i realized i had never seen before. but in my dream it was my house. it was home. i knew my way around. is this some weird portal to the future? is this my future house? i guess we will have to wait and see ;) argumed is graduated now. she walked across thursday evening. big smiles here. she is a graduate now :) all in all. i love lotp. i love my hair. and i love my singing and dancing in the shower. adios. amigos.
the K-meister!
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