No one's laughing at God in a hospital.

I wish I could tell everyone how this girl is so amazing. how much i wish i could be like her. how her optimism, and her presence lights a room. She is strong, and brave. I cant put in words how angry I am, that this could happen. It hurts my heart. And I just pray for strength, because I know I am not feeling nowhere near the amount of pain her family is feeling. But I am dying inside. She gives me hope, for my life. She makes me feel like I can do anything. She makes me laugh. You wanna put a smile on for her, you want to tell her that it will go away. But that smile cant be genuine. Lord GOD. I knew it would come. God, I knew this time would come, and i still havent prepared for it. I will not give up on her lord. Its weird how I rely on the people in my life who struggle the most. I need them to show me that I can win my battles as well. But God i need her. Because what is this world, my family without her. God we will be hollow. Let her be an angel, God, let her be one for this family. Let her shine her light on us. Her struggles, God, I want them to show anyone who is afraid to just suck it up. There are bigger problems.

I love her.