i am never going to learn how to be good at giving directions, even to the bathroom. i regret everything. i feel dirty. i feel used. i feel out of sorts. it happened again. years of determination. years of stepping in the right direction. one day. one time. one reaction. i blew it. i dont care who else i let down. i dont. because the feeling that i have within me that rots my soul, and eats my insides will not go away anytime soon. as much as i try to run, try to pretend everything is okay, try to forget what happened, the memory will still be there and haunt me. they are scared. they act like strangers around me. I wish they would believe me. I wish they would understand that this will NEVER happen again. that this is the final straw and im disgusted. that im turning my back on whoever that was who did that. that i care about myself. that i have changed and that i have no idea why it happened. but they dont believe me. they think this is a real problem. that i cannot be trusted. that this is serious. that i have issues.
im done with that life.
why cant you believe me?
1 comment:
=[ i hope you're okay..
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