this one is for friendds ♥

I really really do.

infedelity.

I have been cheating on you.
with another blog.
im really sorry, i didnt mean to hurt you. it doesnt mean anything. I still love you. Its not you, Its me, you see.. IM GOING TO NEW ZEALAND!!!

Yes, you heard right folks, of course close friends and what not will know this already, but for those of you who are new, or are too lazy to just scroll down and read previous posts, I am going in 3 days.

I would like to thank the special friends who have actually tried to hang out with me these past couple of weeks. Who have taken me out, and have said good bye. It means alot and I truly will miss you. You are the best, and I will definitely be telling my kiwi friends about you.

For the next 6 months, I will be spending most of my time blogging on my New Zealand blog, you can view it by, going onto my profile, and clicking on the New Zealand Blog link :)

It will be journey based- with most of the information on what is happening, what has happened. Not as personal, as it will be viewed by many more people.

If and when i feel like i need to express personal blog-ness I will for sure blog on here, but for the most part, follow the new one :)

thankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouuu♥
kylie

"i hate you"

when everything is said and done, nothing will happen.

I know this.

but i cant stop thinking, and thinking, and thinking some more.

im a lamer. im dumb. im stupid.

ill stop now.

somewhere over the rainbow.

If I had one wish, I would wish for you,
because thats what girls like me, do,
I would believe that we were meant to be,
and that all this time, you were in love with me.

but thats just silly, i dont have one wish,
we arent meant to be, as you can see,
so you will be you, and I will be me.
and thats just who we need to be.

♥

somewhere flowers die.

and i wont go slow, and time can make the mind forget.

i push things away when they get too hard.

i avoid conflict.

i dont want to deal with it if its going to be too hard to deal with.

so i just push it away.

i let myself erase it from my mind.

and deal with other things.

stupid me.

we're running bear foot you and I.

33 days ladies and gentlemen.

33 days until my dream comes true. until i leave this country. until i live a life thats meant to be. until i follow what im made for. until i truly and entirely live for Jesus Christ.

when you have eggs.. you make lemonade?

Say you have an egg, its delicate, it could easily break if you were to drop it. so you hold on to it. you take care of it. you make sure it does not break. but then. one day, you find something called a recipe. and in this recipe you need to break this egg. this egg that you have been watching over, and caring for. in this recipe you need to break the egg to mix it with other things to make it something special. so you do. you break it, you mix it, and you have an outcome. its no longer the egg anymore.

I believe its the same way with your heart. you need to let it break sometimes, because out of being broken, better things will happen. you will learn more, feel more, and be stronger. you have to always remember that as sad as it is to have your heart broken, something better will come out of it eventually.

dont be afraid
i love metaphors.
kylie.

in a place unknown

I dont know who you are,
I dont know what your name is.
I have only seen you twice.
And both times you were amazing.
I have a weakness.
And you found it. You are so 'carefree', so 'living in the moment' and I envy and admire that.
I wish I was your best friend.
I wish I could know your name, and know what you are about.
good morning
good afternoon
and
good night
my beautiful stranger
♥

t&st&st&s♥

I felt you in my legs before I ever met you
And when I laid beside you for the first time I told you
I feel you in my heart and I don't even know you
And now we're saying bye
Bye
Bye
And now we're saying bye
Bye
Bye
I was nineteen
Call me
I felt you in my life before I ever thought to
Feel the need to lay it down beside you and tell you
I feel you in my heart and I don't even know you
And now we're saying bye
Bye
Bye
Now we're saying bye
Bye
Bye
I was nineteen
Call me
I was nineteen
Call me
Flew home
Back to where we met
Stayed inside
I was so upset
I cooked up a plan
So good except I was all alone
You were all I had
Love you
You were all mine
Love me
I was yours right
I was yours right
I was nineteen
Call me
(Bye)
(Bye)
I was nineteen
Call me
(Bye)
(Bye)

i think im insane.

I cant explain it. but I can feel it.

I dont even know you that well, and yet i felt so close to you.

I cant eat, and my mind cant escape what you did.

everytime I think of it, its like someone is punching me in the stomach.

because im the good girl that got hurt.

stupid heart.

you should know better.

grow up.

you want to be someone you're not. stop. honestly. your not fooling anyone. take a look at your self in the mirror. you arent him. you are you. you can judge me on all I am. but when the table is turned, where are you? you cant grow up. I knew this would be hard, but honestly. why? why are you like that? why cant you grow up and be what you should be? a man. or just a decent human being.

im so pathetic. but your worse.
im sorry.

rhyming with myself.

i miss people i shouldnt.
i miss things i shouldnt.
life goes on. things change.
but why cant I deal with it?
why do i miss people that i have only met 3 times?
why?
why do i miss that book that i can no longer find?
or times.
times that werent even that important?
but i miss them and wish i could relive them.
maybe there is an underlying reason why i miss certain things.
certain people
certain times.
but i will never know.
and i guess thats fine with me.
ps. i miss you.

the kitty went under the fence.

his eyes are breath-taking.

his hair is perfect.

his laugh is addicting.

he is sweet.

he is simple.

he is honest.

i think this guy is a dream.

two-faced.

my feet want to stomp with the energy in them. you give me a reason to smile and a reason to dream. but all that could be wrong is evident. i just want to be mean, because that would make things easier. ill be rude and obnoxious, and foul. but what can i do? you dont react. and there is nothing to criticize. im drowning, i teased an alligator with my foot, and now it has me. i know the outcome will be terrible. but you are so clever. you are so bold. the alligator teased me with a chance at something i wanted, something i want, something i have always wanted. drugs are addicting. smoking is addicting, alcohol is addicting. but the most addicting to me. is what you give me.

thank you, but i dont want any.
(i really do)

the same clay as my mug.

i dont know why i do this.

i cant explain what im looking for.

im bored.

but i drink water.

and thats the point.

thats all there is.

so here is to my heart, and everything that goes along with it.

ill hold on to you dearly until something magical happens

this i promise you.

shadows dont last forever

imagine the most perfect day. multiply it by ten. put it in the oven.

let it heat up. get all warm and fuzzy.

then put it in the garden and let the butterflies get in it.

let the wind push a nice sweet breeze on it.

then let it sit by the pool and be refreshed.

that day. that one perfect day.

i will wait for. and it will be worth every minute of waiting.

because its for you. you and i. and thats all that matters.

♥♥♥♥

better call Jlo

so im getting married. :) Just you wait.

you all are invitedd ♥

my love my love f&m.

Sometimes I feel like throwing my hands up in the air

I know I can count on you

sometimes I feel like saying "Lord I just dont care"

but you've got the Love I need to see me through.

When food is gone your my daily meal

When friends are gone I know my saviour's Love is real

Your Love is real

you got the love

you got the love

you got the love

you got the love

you got the love

you got the love

this is it Brett:

amazingnesss;;
Once on a yellow peice of paper with green lines
he wrote a poem
and he called it "chops"
because that was the name of his dog
and thats what it was all about
his teacher gave him an A
and a gold star
and his mother hung it on the kitchen door
and read it to his aunts.
that was the year Father Tracy
took all the kids to the zoo
and he let them sing on the bus
and his little sister was born
with tiny nails and no hair
and his mother and father kissed alot
and the girl around the corner sent him a
Valentine signed with a row of X's
and he had to ask his father what the X's meant
and his father always tucked him in bed at night
and was always there to do it

once on a piece of white paper with blue lines
he wrote a poem
he called it "Autumn"
because that was the name of the season
and that's what it was all about
and his teacher gave him an A
and asked him to write more clearly
and his mother never hung it on the kithcen door
beause of the new paint
and the kids told him
that Father Tracy smoked cigars
and left butts on the pews
and sometime they would burn holes
that was the year his sister got glasses
with thick lenses and black frames
and the girl around the corner laughed
when he asked her to go see santa claus
and the kids told him why
his mother and father kissed alot
and his father never tucked him in bed at night
and his father got mad
when he cried for him to do it

once on a paper torn from his notebook
he wrote a poem
and he called it "Innocence: A Question"
because that was the question about his girl
and thats what it was all about
and his professor gave him an A
and a strange steady look
and his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because he never showed her
that was the year Father Tracy died
and he forgot how the end
of the Apostles's Creed went
and he caught his sister
making out on the back porch
and his mother and father never kissed
or even talked
and the girl around the corner
wore too much make up
that made him cough when he kissed her
but he kissed her anyway
becuase it was the thing to do
and at 3 am he tucked himself into bed
his father snoring soundly

that's why on the back of a brown paper bag
he tried another poem
and he called it "Absolutely Nothing"
because that's what it was really all about
and he gave himself an A
and a slash on each damned wrist
and he hung it on the bathroom door
because this time he didnt think
he could reach the kitchen----

MY FUN BLOG.

so, there is this guy, :) his name is brett and I really appreciate him.
enough said?
enough said?
hmm he wants people to come up to his house.. but.. we cant, and he cant come down here.
and he likes a very potter musical.
muahhahaha.
its great. he is amazing.
and i miss him lots.
okay?
that was fun.
one question
whats his favorite color?
RED

ugugugugugugug

i think Pop-Eye's famous

sound wasnt

just any old sound.

i think it was

the sound

of all the butterflies

he got when he thought of Olive (:

grease 2 is a good movie.

my heart is so vulnerable right now, to the point of excuses. i have made excuses to not let myself like someone, or even love someone. but my heart did find someone. it did go pitter patter. and my mind cant stop thinking about his smile. or his eyes, or his hair or the way he likes me back. the way he says that he cant get enough of my smile. but i am soo afraid. and i cant really explain why. other than the fact that i just am. its like a rush of air in my stomach, i get this huge smile on my face. but i know that it could all be fake. and that there is no reason to have air in my stomach, since there is nothing to smile about.

where for art thou Romeo?

butterflies.

you see, butterflies are very delicate, you could rip their wings simply with a tug of your fingers.

their wings flapping in the air, letting them fly around claiming nectar. they are very beautiful, they come in an array of magical colors, but often stick to tones of nature. Butterflies have a defense mechanism, their wings have decor that can let them camoflage with their surroundings. They are very facinating creatures they are. and i have got some in my stomach.

♥

in the back of my mind.

I dont know how im going to do this.
I dont even know if I am able to.
you see, your eyes, your hands, your silly little mouth.
but what i want to forget the most is something too special.
im hoping every year that goes by is another little sweep,
sweeping that memory under the rug.
a rug that didnt have anything under it.
until i met you.
that rug will be placed in the back of my mind, under some shelves
with old boxes on top.
it wont mean anything to me after the memory is completely swept under.
except that the rug is there.
I cant get rid of it.
and it will be there until I die.

Lord, take the rug away.

curls are a man's best friend now.

I see you there hanging on a tree

You bled and then you died and then you rose again for me

Now you are sitting on Your heavenly throne

Soon we will be coming home

Youre beautiful, you're beautiful;

"soon we will be coming home"

I love you Lord.

I know you have me in the right place,

and that you are with me always

but there are times when I just yearn to be with you.

to see your face. to hold your hand.

you are so gracious, oh sovereign God.

I am so in awe of you.

in love with my saviour

♥

fold those blankets right eh?

to get you, i need to attract you.
what attracts you?
what makes you want to actually get to know a person?
i hope its me.
i want it to be me.
this couldnt have come at a worse time.

your love never fails.

I am somewhat ashamed and, emabarassed that instead of trusting God to provide, I got worried and anxious that he wouldnt.

The Sitch: 3 girls, had planned a trip to New Zealand. one of them being myself. At first it was just to live there, we loved the country and wanted to visit it. But then it turned into something more. All of us went through trials. Concerning money, jobs, family, friends, trust, and ultimately faith. It is now just myself and another friend Britnee going on this journey. Melissa got an oppurtunity to work full time for a year at her job. a sign from God I suppose, I stumbled. you have a stool with 3 legs, its a stool. you have a stool with 2 legs, its not a stool. I wasnt sure I wanted to embark on this journey anymore. With questions such as how will I afford this? Will we have a place to stay once there? How will my parents react to this? How long do I stay? I let myself doubt God. Shame on me. A couple days ago, I watched a video blog of a person I know originally from Ontario, who is in Austrailia with a friend and living out God's purpose for them. I realized that I was blind to God's grace. He had provided me with a second job to save up money, an open schedule for this fall, and friends who are supportive. I had been planning on telling my parents around this time, but watching that video made me sure. This is what I want to do. So, I told them. I worried that they would not agree with this idea because it isnt education. But they both agreed that this is a really good idea, and would be very beneficial to me.

So, here I am, totally psyched that this September I am going to New Zealand. I am going to meet friends, and love God's Youth. I may be going for 3 months, or longer. It really depends how long they want us there for. All I know right now is that, I am amazed at God's amazing power.

this startted as a dream, and look where we are now?
now who can say God isnt real?
becoming a kiwi--
:)kylie

we should get jerseys, cause we'd make a good team

` soihaveaquestiondoyouwannahavea
slumberpartyinmybasementdoimakeyour heartbeatlikean808drumismyloveyour drug?

its such a rush. to not want to put my heart on the line again. to go out there and risk it all. part of me, is not wanting any form of relationship. which could very well be what i should be doing. staying away from the "b" word (boyfriend) but the other part of me, thrives on the rush i get when i flirt with a guy and its like i miss all the little things that come with having a boyfriend.
I know if i start anything i wont be free to flirt. to literally be free. but its always nice to have someone right? Dont worry. im not just going to pick someone off the street say "he looks decent" and then start something. I will put time and effort into making sure it would work out and that he seems right for me. I am just confused about it all. and sometimes certain guys just make me smile. whatever. time will tell, and God has his sneaky ways we know. When I am ready, he will make it happen :)

tatafornow♥

There is a girl named Lovely.

As all humans have, I have gone through my struggles. I have gone on the "roller coaster of doom" with relationships, friendships, family, God, you name it. And I truly believe that in order to get through said issues and struggles we need to have first and foremost a relationship with God, but as well a person we can rely on and have for when you just need to vent.
I am lucky to say that I happen to have many friends who I can rely on and call close. But one in particular has graduated. Britnee, my dearest Britnee. I would just like to thank you for everything, absolutely everything you have done for me these past 4 years. You are such an inspiration, and I really do admire you. I love you alot. I cant imagine going through the stuff I went through without you. I am able to tell you everything. thats a big deal. I am so proud of you. And I know you are capable of so much. You will change this world deary. I cant wait for it. I love you lots. today was fun :) and ps. i really do miss your old house. but.. materialistic things dont matter eh? haha.

love you forever and ever.
ky ;)

today is 'someday'

God is so sneaky. But I just chuckle a little bit, and just feel so peaceful knowing that he has my life all wrapped up in his little hands. He listens to my prayers. He knows me, He knows what I need. oh how silly. I just love him. I just do. As I was coming home from work on the bus, a man was talking loudly about his brothers wedding coming up in October, saying he had never been to one and been part of the wedding party. The bus driver pipes up and starts talking about weddings, and then goes on to question the guy about why people dress up for weddings. the guy obviously doesnt know the answer, and so the bus driver goes on to say that marriage wasnt called marriage way back when. it was called Holy Matrimony, which is all about God. He then goes on to tell the guy that a marriage is about God, so you cannot have marriage with out God. DING DING. there you go folks. thats the truth right there! Today's society is so messy. divorce, step children, step parents. what the hell? seriously? when did it become okay for people to get married without God? anywho that was exciting. but honestly. for those who are christian and who read regularily. dont settle for less. know that God knows you. and he has made someone for you. that will love you for all your quirks, your imperfections. that person is out there somewhere, and unfortunately&fortunately God will show that person to us when we are ready.

until then. live. love God. praise him. enjoy your time alone.

kylie♥

trees are always black.

Lord let me be free. Let me be gone. Let me leave this place so i can appreciate it. I really dont know what just happened but im pissed. yep you read it. im pissed. thank you mr. idontcare. You gotta love ex-boyfriends. they know you. well. I love venting to them. its great. im sick as a dog. i have a pile of tissues on my floor dying to be cleaned up. but whats the use? there is going to be a new pile soon. really, how much snot can be in ones nose? I have this fear. its like im falling, and I have no one to catch me. physically. I have friends yes. and spiritually. I have God. but. romantically. I dont. i miss it. I miss not having to wear makeup, or caring what I wore because it didnt matter. I was beautiful in his eyes no matter what. I miss not having to talk to other guys, not having to flirt. because I was comfortable. and now. now that its done. that its no more. I am uncomfortable. I have to try again. ugh. trying sucks. haha. Im planning on buying an ipod touch. IM SO EXCITED. that means i actually will have an ipod. because for the past.. 6 months? i havent had one. its been gross. but soon. I miss certain people. seeing certain things. I had a dream the other night. In this dream I was in a house. a house that once I was awake i realized i had never seen before. but in my dream it was my house. it was home. i knew my way around. is this some weird portal to the future? is this my future house? i guess we will have to wait and see ;) argumed is graduated now. she walked across thursday evening. big smiles here. she is a graduate now :) all in all. i love lotp. i love my hair. and i love my singing and dancing in the shower.
adios. amigos.
the K-meister!

its time to change.

I Kylie, am going to make some changes. I am going to make some new rules. Because if I keep living the way I am living. I will get hurt.

1. dont be the first to text.

2. guard your heart.

3. make it hard for people to get in.

4. you deserve the best.

5. dont care as much as you usually do.

6. get a life and live it.

:)

my inability to be random no longer.

My mom is 40 years old. She turned 40 on March 17 and I still have a balloon in my room that says HAPPY 40TH BIRTHDAY. really? I wish life was just one emotion at a time. there I said it. I wish if i was happy that it would just be happy for a while. then go to mellow, then maybe sad. BUT NO. we need to experience all these emotions at once. like, jealousy, hurt, complete sadness, regret, longing, missing, all these emotions. when do we get a break? I am starting to love my second job, i dont have too many friends.. well, i dont really have any friends unless you count an old lady who carries mints in her pocket. something i do regret and am quite concerned about is that, i find at the end of my shift, i think back about what i think about during my shift, and, there is blankness, just nothing. Like.. I actually dont think during my shift, and when i say think, i mean ponder ideas, think of friends & family, think of God. so.. thats just interesting. I love brett. with a passion. I just love him and think he deserves better. And i will try my hardest to make him feel loved. Britnee picked me up today from a bus stop. made my day :)
in all seriousness now though, with the emotion thing.. could we take a break from multiple emotions?

download.

For some reason, all I can think about right now is Taylor R. Is this a sign? what does it mean? I am so worried for her. I dont know what is right anymore. I dont want her to suffer anymore but I dont want her to leave this earth.

God, he is quite a marvelous mystery eh? He just likes to put things in our lives so we can be tested, well i wont fail God. I will be strong. If this is your will, then this is the way. I just want to know that something will happen, that things will turn out. but that isnt up to me. its up to the lord. I am so impatient.

for now. prayers, for numerous things. but just keep me in your prayers. and ill keep you in mine.

love youuuu

i love my friends. ;)

oh you weird weird aliens.

maybe if you could just know all that i know. i wouldnt get annoyed with you so often. but you dont, you wont, and you never will. patience here I come.

why was it called a magical lamp? it wasnt a lamp.

one more day and im done this week. post secret tomorrow. im exhausted but i know my saviour will give me energy and strength. I feel guilty, but i guess thats the consequence that comes with sin. I am so happy for Taylor, and feel a strong amount of pure Joy in bringing someone close to God. I am starting to truly understand what it means to be patient and waiting in the Lord. He has his own timing. I kind of just love having two jobs and getting two pay cheques. Britnee is moving soon. Like really soon. This is a big deal for her. I know this. I am absolutely gorgeous. I know this. but I would really like it if guys didnt make it that obvious. the twins birthday party is today. woot. bowling. I am going to a hockey game tonight. oh pure coldness. timmys? probably. you gotta roll up that rim. volcanoes are nasty and scary wonders of the world. Aidan thinks I dont talk to her anymore. This could be true, or it could be the fact that im super busy all the time. I need prayer for my family. I didnt realize that there was so much hurt and pain and lies and conflict with in my family, and it was right under my nose. It has been really bothering me lately how people can just say what is on their mind to you even if it is mean. Like.. did you mother never tell you, if you have nothing nice to say dont say anything at all? I love my friends. and thats all there is. there isnt anymore.

`and do you brush your teeth before you kiss?

God which one?
I know you have a plan, but literally I feel so confused about all of it. Maybe I should just wait until something happens, and until then just live my life. But being patient is not something I am good at. I know what I want, but in contrast to your plan, I could be making a big mistake. Lord just show me the way and show me patience and peace. Let me be calm in this time. Because my mind is going crazy and my heart is doing flips. I love you Lord. I love you with all I have in me, my bones and flesh. Every blood cell has your name on it. I am yours. I will do anything for the Lord God Almighty.

So in this time of confusion and patience and peace. I see everything in God's timing and know that if one of them is right, that God will show me. I love that. Just the simple fact that God has my back. He will not let me down, Ever.

purely blessed.
kjpi

the sun always rises where it wants

you could stare at me with those eyes forever
i would be okay with it.
and if you blush,
i wouldnt judge.
we can be friends.
because thats all i want right now.
but, just letting you know.
i love your eyes.
♥

im going somewhere.

If only you knew my past, what i have been through. Why I am the way I am.

But you dont, everyone has little pieces of knowledge of my life.

But no one knows all of it, and no one will.

It is a heavy burden though, to carry all my memories, problems and sufferings on my shoulders. But i dont carry all of it. nope.

I have my God.

The King of Kings.

He is Lord God Almighty.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

well the walls do listen sometimes,

I dont know what you do in your spare time. I dont know if you even read this. but i just want you to know, that im doing great. and im happier than ever. thanks for letting go. because i have now learned to live without you. and its great.

I feel fabuloussssss♥

my childhood was a good one

this is totally my thoughts. exactly. is it mine? nope. but im glad im not totally crazy :)

but the wind blows where it wants.

ohhhhh my;

i never want to leave this dreamland

♥

Its a good day

you live in a random house my dear sir.

If i dont get these feelings out.. well. it wont be good. I miss him. but not him. i miss the idea of having him, of touching him, of being close to him. I dont miss the fighting, me being scared, him yelling at me, making sure that i was scared, so that i wouldnt talk back to him, i wouldnt stand up for myself. i know we were wrong for each other. but, taylor swift says it best, when someone tells you they love you, your going to believe them. I have someone just as close now. not anything like that. just a friend. but i told him i loved him, sooner than i ever did with the other one. but now its a question of, do i love him as a friend, or.. did i just say it because im used to saying it? is there meaning behind the word for me anymore? This friend. I want to see big things happening in his life. I know he will be great. I can see change in him already, it makes me smile. I enjoy spending time with him. but that is not where my heart is right now. my heart is bruised, and torn, its been stepped on a few times. I need to let it heal, I need to heal. before i start anything, or risk anything. I miss my friend. she is in calgary. although we bbm, its just not the same. It wil be okay though, she is back soon. even though today is cloudy and dark, my world is bright and shiny! i am in the midst of a major ego boost. I cant go into detail, its something for me. something i need to do for myself. but im excited. :)

I just had to get those emotions out of my body. sometimes i dont want to tell people about what is really going on in my life. i would rather just talk it out and not get any feedback.
this is really good for that. :)

ky.

lets resume back to normal, whatever that might be..

Day 07 — A photo that makes you happy.

well, I would say this sums it up. that picture makes me happy. it symbolizes friendship that will last forever. I love these people and always will!

♥

spirit rain♥

you are so glorious. so real. so wonderful. thank you for everything.

did you see that cross? oh,, i did.

she knew it was a bad idea from the start, that gut feeling you get when you know something doesnt seem right. she noticed they kept giving her drinks, getting her drunk way past her limit. she started getting really dizzy not knowing which way was which. not a familiar face in sight. "Come on.. your not even drunk" they would say. they werent even her age. she didnt even know them. they werent friends. why did she feel the need to impress them? she should have said no at the party, she should have gone home. she could be in bed right now, warm, cozy. she shouldnt have come here. every one was sweating, dancing to the music that was blaring. couples touching each other, and kissing. she felt out of place. this isnt who she was. she didnt do these kind of things. all of a sudden she felt weak, too weak to stand. she sat down at a nearby couch. a group of people already sitting there, whom she didnt know as well. she couldnt focus. and then it happened she couldnt control her body. had she been ruffeed? who did this to her? what happens next? what does she do? then she sees them, the ones she came with. they come up to her. they start talking in whispers and angry tones. She cries out, trying to scream, someone should help her. someone should come. but no one does, she only manages to produce a muffled cry. she feels them grab her, and move her past people in the crowd. she is being brought outside. she starts crying. where are they taking her? home she hopes. they move her along the sidewalk and down an alleyway. she hears them talking about not being responsible for this, for being charged for what they have done. she cries more, them holding her up. she has no way of running away and cant help herself. thats when she feels them hoist her up into a garbage bin, she looks into their eyes, tears blurring her vision. how could they do this? she waits for their decision. she waits, and cries. and thats when she thinks of it. prayer. 'Dear God, i need your help, God please help me' and thats when she heard the sirens. those who were holding her up let go, and ran. she felt herself falling, not knowing where she would land and what she would land in. a minute later she saw flashlight beams and tried to cry out and make noise. the police came running over and took hold of her arms, pulling her out of the smelly bin. they took her to their car and gave her a blanket to put over herself, but they realized once she didnt reach for the blanket what was wrong. they took her to the hospital and helped her recover.

She will remember that memory until she dies, but the one thing that she holds dear and close to her heart is the truth and the love and the miraculous mercy God showed her that night. God saved her life. and for that she will forever praise the king of kings.

amen.

ya, we think he is something else.

Day06- whatever tickles your fancy.


I have been struggling a little bit with how God loves me. We know humans are capable of loving each other. I love so many people. But we also know, humans can fall out of love. Knowing this, we become less trusting, and shy away from what love really is. God loves us unconditionally. Like. Can you fathom that? Can you possibly even imagine what that means? Whatever wrongs, we as humans may do, God loves us, just the same. Being hurt, I find it hard to trust. even God, its hard to trust. But that is the sinning nature. We want to think for ourselves. My plan, my way, my life, my rules. Its about putting your life in God's hands and saying, this is for you. You can help me with my problems, you can provide for me, you can love me when no one else will.

Im reminding myself every chance i get, that God knows whats going to happen next, I am simply along for the ride. trust in God.

trust in God for he is the king of kings.
♥

now i know where I am.

Day-05 your favorite quote.

I could put a really complex and deep quote up here.. but thats not how i wish to be. My favorite quote is "In God we trust". I think it's pretty self explanatory.

put your feet in your slippers.

Day-04 your favorite book.

I really do love to read, I find its one of the very few hobbies I have. I tend to borrow books alot, from my friends. I consider myself a pretty fast reader, and I enjoy it alot. There is the Twilight saga, The Harry Potter series, the Scott Westerfield series etc. But I would have to say my Favorite Book is Awake&Dreaming- Kit Pearson

I aint no hollerback girl

Day-03 your favorite television program.

There are so many tv shows that i truly appreciate, to name a few there is The Biggest Loser, The Buried life, Boy meets world :) Ogrady, the beginning of American idol, the O.C, the office etc. But I would have to say my absolute favorite television program is Dawsons Creek. I love it for reasons unknown. It makes me happy. The drama is crazy, and its not organized, but the characters are real, and funny at times. I just LOVE it.

♥

oh thanks for being my frienddd.

Day-02 your favorite movie

Considering my obsession with movies, this also will be a hard one. Each movie makes me feel a certain way by the end of it. So i suppose it really depends on the emotions I want to feel. For the movie I have chosen, it obviously reminds me of childhood, but also a sense of imagination and love, pain and suffering, and humourous happenings. My favorite movie is Thumbelina.

you wish you were standing, I wish I was sitting.

Day-01 your favorite song.

Asking me this, or any favorite for that matter is such a hard task for me to accomplish. But to keep faithful to the challenge I shall choose a song from a bunch of favorites. I heard this song when I was in grade 7. I remember it gave me a sense of chills because it just sounded so cool. Now maybe that was my introduction to punk-rock-indie music but I fell in love. My favorite song is Pink Tux To The Prom- Relient K.

caught us eating ice cream in your room at 3 in the morning

An idea brought to my attention by a well loved cousin.
to blog about such things to keep everyone in check.

30 day challenge
Day 01 — Your favorite song
Day 02 — Your favorite movie
Day 03 — Your favorite television program
Day 04 — Your favorite book
Day 05 — Your favorite quote
Day 06 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 07 — A photo that makes you happy
Day 08 — A photo that makes you angry/sad
Day 09 — A photo you took
Day 10 — A photo of you taken over ten years ago
Day 11 — A photo of you taken recently
Day 12 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 13 — A fictional book
Day 14 — A non-fictional book
Day 15 — A fanfic
Day 16 — A song that makes you cry (or nearly)
Day 17 — An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.)
Day 18 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 19 — A talent of yours
Day 20 — A hobby of yours
Day 21 — A recipe
Day 22 — A website
Day 23 — A YouTube video
Day 24 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 25 — Your day, in great detail
Day 26 — Your week, in great detail
Day 27 — This month, in great detail
Day 28 — This year, in great detail
Day 29 — Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days
Day 30 — Whatever tickles your fancy"

a listening ear.

i stole these words from a fellow blogger I follow, thought they were amazing. thank you for writing :)I enjoy it.

You say you're "tired of it all." Yet, you drag yourself through life like a zombie...repeating the same dance, day after day. You say, "Someday I'll do it.

Go after that dream." But, your "some days" are turning into today, and they'll soon become tomorrow's past, which is yesterday, then you realize in panic:

Poof. They're gone forever.

So, wake up. Right now. Be your dream, while you are conscious. Create your fate, while you can still see. Make it a reality, while you still have the ability to "do." Or, risk waking up to a feeling of despair, and a blank book of "what ifs."

Fill the pages. Live. Regrets don't exist here. Only lessons. Beautiful, living, breathing life lessons.

feels like the first time.

you just make me smile. okay. :)

you were all you ever were.

dare to be different. dare to make a change. dare to help someone. dare to like something new. dare to be amazing. dare to be confident. because all you have is yourself to make a change.

♥

a life changing movie.

Can I just say PRAISE THE LORD. If you have not seen this movie, I strongly suggest you do. There are definately some crying moments but it is an amazing movie.


Please get your hands on a copy ASAP and comment. I would like everyones feed back.

savannaah.

WOW. i find if i dont blog for a long time i have alot to say.

So HERE goes. I miss my friend Cass. Like really and truly, and i hate how we arent best friends anymore. Josh is home, but I have barely seen him. boo urns. I am getting really really crappy hours at work, and so low on money its hurting my self esteem. last night i was frantic and in tears. I was so angry. I dont have money to buy food, and i dont really have lunch food at home. I literally have been eating like one meal a day. I miss my cousins. Usually i would just mention you brett, but i miss everyone. Madi, landon, Danika, Collin, Alexa, Jamie, Cody. gr. Im starting to really think about my life.. like really really, getting a better job for one, but applying for a credit card, and getting a new phone, not on my parents plan, about applying for 4 years of school. it excites me. I have so much potential, and now that a year has passed of not being in college, I feel like I have truly grown. Like i have matured even if all I was doing was working.. I need to get my L again. Im embarassed, because this is not the person I saw myself as being in highschool. I would really like to say that I have my N and that I can drive anywhere.. and it doesnt help that people make fun of me about it either.. like.. yea i know i dont have my L.. its great you can laugh about it though.. because me on the other hand, Im struggling just thinking about it. this month is going to be great, impact starts up, along with ethos, and Leaders retreat (previous post @ mt washington) and my work party at the end of the month, my sisters birthday and more fun adventures. Yes, life is perfectly alright, I would say the same as anyone elses, good with a hint of hard.

until next time.
God Bless
&
lovelovelove.
kylie.

for argumed.♥

When I saw you wave goodbye it made me smile while it made me cry
I never thought I'd see the day,
I never thought you'd walk a million miles away
But I know we all gotta grow so

These days everybody wants to find out how the story ends
So we say nothing is a possibility if you don't got your friends
And I know as time goes but where never gonna pretend
Cause you and me will always be friends

So if you're feeling all alone remember good times or remember home
And if you question all that you see remember that you always got a friend in me
Cause I know we all gotta grow

These days everybody wants to find out how the story ends
So we say nothing is a possibility if you don't got your friends
And I know as time goes but where never gonna pretend
Cause you and me will always be friends

These days everybody wants to find out how the story ends
So we say nothing is a possibility if you don't got your friends
And I know as time goes you'll be fast and firm slow and we'll find
Are tempo cause we may never know how the story ends
But you and me will always be...

These days everybody wants to find out how the story ends
So we say nothing is a possibility if you don't got your friends
And I know as time goes but where never gonna pretend
Cause you and me will always be friends

Yeah you and me will always be friends
Yeah you and me will always be friends

i dont wanna wait, for my life to be over.

Jm.Jl.Dl.Jp.Pw.Am.

I am in love with these people.