My mom is 40 years old. She turned 40 on March 17 and I still have a balloon in my room that says HAPPY 40TH BIRTHDAY. really? I wish life was just one emotion at a time. there I said it. I wish if i was happy that it would just be happy for a while. then go to mellow, then maybe sad. BUT NO. we need to experience all these emotions at once. like, jealousy, hurt, complete sadness, regret, longing, missing, all these emotions. when do we get a break? I am starting to love my second job, i dont have too many friends.. well, i dont really have any friends unless you count an old lady who carries mints in her pocket. something i do regret and am quite concerned about is that, i find at the end of my shift, i think back about what i think about during my shift, and, there is blankness, just nothing. Like.. I actually dont think during my shift, and when i say think, i mean ponder ideas, think of friends & family, think of God. so.. thats just interesting. I love brett. with a passion. I just love him and think he deserves better. And i will try my hardest to make him feel loved. Britnee picked me up today from a bus stop. made my day :)
in all seriousness now though, with the emotion thing.. could we take a break from multiple emotions?
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