savannaah.

WOW. i find if i dont blog for a long time i have alot to say.

So HERE goes. I miss my friend Cass. Like really and truly, and i hate how we arent best friends anymore. Josh is home, but I have barely seen him. boo urns. I am getting really really crappy hours at work, and so low on money its hurting my self esteem. last night i was frantic and in tears. I was so angry. I dont have money to buy food, and i dont really have lunch food at home. I literally have been eating like one meal a day. I miss my cousins. Usually i would just mention you brett, but i miss everyone. Madi, landon, Danika, Collin, Alexa, Jamie, Cody. gr. Im starting to really think about my life.. like really really, getting a better job for one, but applying for a credit card, and getting a new phone, not on my parents plan, about applying for 4 years of school. it excites me. I have so much potential, and now that a year has passed of not being in college, I feel like I have truly grown. Like i have matured even if all I was doing was working.. I need to get my L again. Im embarassed, because this is not the person I saw myself as being in highschool. I would really like to say that I have my N and that I can drive anywhere.. and it doesnt help that people make fun of me about it either.. like.. yea i know i dont have my L.. its great you can laugh about it though.. because me on the other hand, Im struggling just thinking about it. this month is going to be great, impact starts up, along with ethos, and Leaders retreat (previous post @ mt washington) and my work party at the end of the month, my sisters birthday and more fun adventures. Yes, life is perfectly alright, I would say the same as anyone elses, good with a hint of hard.

until next time.
God Bless
&
lovelovelove.
kylie.