A dream, is a wish your heart makes.

So. Lately I have been having some odd dreams. Im not implying that I am the only one who has odd dreams. I mean Come on. Everyone does. But for me, these dreams consist of things I cant really tell anyone. These dreams consist of something, I think I subconciously want. But I am so confused. You see, I am all about doing things in God's time, and letting him have his way with my life. The old ' what would jesus do' idea. The thing is... these dreams.. I dont know if its what God wants, like.. Am I supossed to want this? Is it me wanting this or God? If God wants it, then I want it too, but.. If its just me who wants it.. then.. i dont know. I know what your going to say... Pray about it. And I will.. But at the same time.. I dont even know if I want it. Like, It would be risking alot, and what if it doesnt work out. Alot to pray and think about.

overcome with emotion.

It's like Im jealous,

mad,

sad,

angry,

hurt,

content,

happy,

excited,

concerned,

offended,

all at the same time.

its overwhelming,

and all those emotions are felt for different reasons.

So..

now what?

i love the work of God.

"I tried calling God last night
But i didnt have him in my contacts
So I dialed jesus christ
It was too long
So i dialed help please
It was long distance, and i was scared of who would answer
So i hung up before i got connected
I wonder who would have answered, i wonder what they would have said
I typed in God in search for my contacts anyways
Helga Wamsley came up,
She's a girl that i went to art class with for like 2 months,
Helga isnt eve her real name
I felt like calling her, but knew that i shouldn'tI don't know her well enough, and havent talked to her in like 7 months
But i wish i did, i felt like it was a sign
I went shopping with my sister today,
and we went to a store that had clothes in it that that girl would wear
Another sign?
I'm not going to talk to her though
What's she going to do?
Shes my brothers age
Stupid cellular"

please. for me. txt her.