my precious

These past couple of weeks at school have been great, but the topic of values and ethics have come up alot and i know its a topic that will be within my program for the duration of the program.

I had avoided making it known that I was a christian, thinking that I would be judged purely on this fact. I even avoided discussing my faith with christians in my class. My thoughts were, I wanted people to get to know me first, and then know my faith.

It became a hidden faith, and everytime faith and religion was brought up i was put in an awkward torn situation where I didnt know if I was ready to be open about it.

I would like to blame my fear on the probability that people would look down on me, or think less of my opinion on certain topics. And in this profession, Ill tell you right now, there are alot of confused, broken people. (where arent there broken people?) Many people have openly admitted they dont appreciate religious people, because their experiences with them have been unsuccessful ones. Where religion has been pushed down their throats to the point of sourness.

Well. I was humbled at a church service I went to, where I was fully called to discipleship. What I was reminded of, (because I do know this) is that what makes me, ME, is my faith. What I was portraying before was a boring self without purpose. Of course I am feeling shame. I wanted to hide my savior.

Now, Although I wont be pushing religion down peoples throat, I now see this as a mission field. Whether that be evangelizing openly, or just loving people for who they are. I will be a disciple of Christ and bring people to Christ through Him.

I will also happily admit that I did finally come forth about my faith in front of the whole class, and so far so good. I have no hateful stares! haha.

take care xo