and they stay there.

breath in. exhale. that was a wake up call. a false alarm. but what would you do if that had happened? would your whole world crumble? no. would you succumb into a deep depression? no. but would you feel a tremendous stinging sensation and feel really confused and hurt? of course. i don't think anyone is normal. so yes, i will say I'm weird. but i don't know if i like being known for that. lets give myself some credit here. I'm a pretty decent person when i want to be. i do enjoy making strange noises, and the majority of the time they are in public. sometimes i dont care what I'm wearing and so that might include clothes you wouldn't put together. i find unusual things funny, and i really do enjoy music that hasn't seen the light of mainstream. I like really raw films and documentaries. i do enjoy watching normal chick flicks and actions as well, and obviously scary movies. i have a different way of thinking, and i do believe there are blocks in certain areas of my brain. i do not understand a lot, but i understand most of the time. i avoid conflict like the plague, and try to incorporate humour into everything. i like to pretend i know what I'm talking about. i can zone out and think about things for a long period of time, and then come to and wonder.. just how long was i zoned out for? my favorite time to think is in the car. driving and listening to music and i will be gone. i have highs and lows, and as much as i push you away, its the last thing i want. but do keep your distance, if i pull you in, there is a chance i might get bored. let it be gradual. alot of the time i wont be able to explain things, its like my brain cant grasp the concept of teaching what it knows. i have a lot of memories. memories i remember, and memories i dont remember. i have dreams, hopes, and aspirations. if i could stop time and just work on reaching those things in life that i care about, then things might work out once and a while. im lucky often, if luck even exists. but i do things almost in my own timing. which the majority of the time is late compared to everyone else. being born, actually understanding that math equation, learning how to drive, wearing makeup, and probably getting married. so yes, maybe i am weird. but i think im just a complex human being, so if thats what you want man, then here i am.