Oh my asian cousin.

Have you ever had times where everything is like, literally upside down, things arent going right, and its like you need to put the world on hold. In those moments I find that you need the people that are always there for you no matter what. I have lots of those people. But one in particular, I could tell him anything. Dont ask me why... Im not quite sure myself, but I could hang out with him for hours upon hours and never get bored. He makes things funny, and exciting and I really love him for that.
Yoon, I miss you. I feel terrible for alot of things right now, because I feel like my world is turned upside down, and im expected to be ok with these things. To be honest, Im not okay right now. Although this year has had some epic major events already, it has brought alot of confusion, and denial, and frustration. I feel like im overwhelmed with school, juggling friends and a boyfriend, and working on personal goals, such as learning to share, and be a better person. On top of all that I have had some not so good moments these past few weeks, and I feel really alone. I KNOW. im not alone. But I feel as if I cant tell people down here whats on my mind. Sometimes the closest people to you, can judge you the most. I need my Yoony. (haha new nickname) I miss msn chats. endless wall posts. I am going crazy over here, and I really need you to be patient, I need to talk to you as much as you need to talk to me.. but right now i feel i am dealing with the worlds economic issues. Or a pimple.. that you need to pop but it wont? ............ um.......... yea... dont ask.... Anyways. I miss you. I love you. And I feel bad.
lets talk soon.
♥