when the moon smiles back at you- worth reading.

I cant explain it. For one this blog is going to be more random and unexplainable than ever. please have patience. right now. right this very second I have so much happiness. so much love. [listen to the rocket summer - so much love] I have found that you have to do things that absolutely scare the living day lights out of you in order for you to be happy and feel accomplished. I went bowling last night. I went to UBC yesterday. I went to tim hortons with 3 of the six pack. I went to Britnee's. I asked a question in History 1103. My lungs and heart feel like they are going to burst because of the excitement I have. I will get good grades this semester. I will achieve goals. OMG. charlie put a banana in your ear. please charlie. Brett. I really think this summer I should go up there. I really do. I miss my vernon family. Tessa I miss judging houses with you on ferries. I MISS IT. I miss leaning up against a pillar kissing him. feeling out of this world. I love feeling older than people-although I act younger than them. I love my hands. they are nice hands. I love ma mere's pockets. she has nice pockets. I love TWLOHA. I have so MANY CLOTHES (almost like Cass) and I have absolutely NO CLOSET. The wind blows my hair. I love being in Kyle's car singing Hosanna. Hosanna in the highest. I love surprising people by being super generous. my work pants are too short. I love YOUTH CHURCH. I slapped him. twice. I was sitting in the long house. looking to see if the love doctor thought we would work out. (we didnt) I love that my mom reads alot. I love that my sister plays video games. I love how generations have changed.. im in the middle. a good hair day is when i get my hair looking good. My feet have blisters. I wear flats with socks. im not doing homework right now. i look forward to the newspaper man coming every sunday to give me the tri-cities. one day he will die. he is old. the lotion used to be at my desk. it wasnt for a long time. today its back. welcome lotion. IM going to Spark conference. IM going to Britney spears concert. IM going to Disneyland 2010-new years eve. My best friend left last wednesday. he wont be back until christmas of this year. silly New Zealand. I cried. I forgot how amazing life is when you do amazing things. I love my work. One day soon I will get married. who is coming? I love Oscar. he snorts. I dont drink alcohol. how is that for convenient? I will have the best liver ever. im not giving you my liver when I die. its your fault you drank too much not mine. last night i didnt care if I woke up ever again. (that sounds super morbid) but last night i was so content with how my life was, I didnt see reason for it to continue. [i woke up-apparently its not as good as I thought] I love Brett's poems. -yes i creep- I agree, facebook has lost its thrill. I know nothing about cars and yet I work at a dealership. whenever I hug my mom, she thinks I want something. why cant i just hug you? I think im beautiful sometimes. sometimes i say wow. Im gorgeous. sometimes. i dont drink pop anymore. Tomorrow, it will be one month pop free. I wish i didnt have big boobs. I want long hair again. BADLY. I love God. I think i am going to be addicted to buying nail polish. I need more shirts. I am so excited for summer. I think i need to shutup now.
see.. it was worth it :)
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