i know, you know, that i'm not fond of askin

my dearest,

im sitting here wondering what to think. i keep replaying things in my mind. all of it screams that there is a truth to this madness. that there is hope beyond hope. but sometimes actions do speak louder than words. and so now is where I need to know certain things, in order to keep moving like thomas the engine.
do i forget what was and focus on brand new fresh and free? or do i allow myself to be what my heart desires to be and just understand what is. im a good person, and things happen. im genuine and each story is different. i know what could happen for both directions, and honestly im okay with both. i am. i just need to know.

i need to know dearest.

k.