thats all

if i could express how hearing your voice made me feel.
if i could.
i would.
i spent the night reliving the phone call.
things i should have said
things you should have said
my my
all i know is i dont want to keep doing this.
i need an end
or a beginning.
thats all.

i know, you know, that i'm not fond of askin

my dearest,

im sitting here wondering what to think. i keep replaying things in my mind. all of it screams that there is a truth to this madness. that there is hope beyond hope. but sometimes actions do speak louder than words. and so now is where I need to know certain things, in order to keep moving like thomas the engine.
do i forget what was and focus on brand new fresh and free? or do i allow myself to be what my heart desires to be and just understand what is. im a good person, and things happen. im genuine and each story is different. i know what could happen for both directions, and honestly im okay with both. i am. i just need to know.

i need to know dearest.

k.

my mind has gone crazy.

I know.
I know I deserve to get a smack in the face.
For someone to say 'smarten up'
because im acting like a foolish person.
i wasnt expecting all of this.
it wasnt my plan from the beginning.
but what I do know is that
I
CANT
GET
MY
MIND
OFF
OF
YOU.

Im hopeless hun
♥

like the ceiling cant hold us.

i remember you.
in all my power i want to believe
that none of it was fake.
i dont know where you are or what youre doing.
but i really hope this isnt the end.
we never even got a chance.


not one.