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I once heard that if you believe that you will be happy, it will happen. That if you thought positively, everything would work accordingly. I really dont believe that. You are dealt the cards you are dealt. Its like a real life mafia game, with a poker twist. You see, you can trade cards, and get new ones. BUT, you need to earn those new cards.
Im going to be honest. I was put on academic probation last semester at my college. That means that I have one last final chance to get my grades up next semester or im out. Believe me. I was scared. I cried. I had this gut feeling, this sick, disgusting what am I doing with my life? kind of feeling. Because, for real.. what am I doing with my life? This is why I have been blogging about finding myself. About reaching and searching for my soul. what makes me happy. Because I dont know. Everyone has a passion, whether it be music, or sports, or art, or collecting orange tic tacs, me? I have nothing. I dont know what I want in this life. I dont know what will make me happy, and what I can make money off of. So today, I opened a letter from Douglas College. A letter stating that I need to arrange a meeting with a councellor at my school before I can register. Will I be able to go back and do school work that will only make me feel unworthy?
I had wanted to become a teacher, I have years and years of experience for the practicum, but just recently I started thinking about whether I can stand being surrounded by kids constantly.
My new idea???
To become a psychologist. I would be a doctor!
what do you think??
would I make a good one?
so lost.
kylie
Your passion can be hating on asians? Or, dtching certain asian cousins for certain dumb boyfriends... I mean you can't really make money off it, but who knows, maybe one day.
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PS.. you can't make money off orange tic tacs..
I miss you :[ Like so much!!
You would be a good teacher though, i mean you might scare the kids, but heh! At least you get paid. But that is what college is about, going in for something then changing everything around so that you won't be miserable for the rest of your life. You should be a psychologist, it would be interesting. Or a counsellor or something. I think it would be cool, but then again.. you might get asian patients every now and again. You'll just have to suck it up, or give them really bad advice.
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Maybe that's why your grades havent been up to standards thugh? You're just not that into what you're doing. I wish i could help you in your life, i mean you've helped me so much, i jsut wish i could return the favour.
I really like that poker metaaphor thing, maybe thats what you should be. A professional metaphorist.
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Talk to me sometime kay?
Yeah, that would be best.