in the back of my mind.

I dont know how im going to do this.
I dont even know if I am able to.
you see, your eyes, your hands, your silly little mouth.
but what i want to forget the most is something too special.
im hoping every year that goes by is another little sweep,
sweeping that memory under the rug.
a rug that didnt have anything under it.
until i met you.
that rug will be placed in the back of my mind, under some shelves
with old boxes on top.
it wont mean anything to me after the memory is completely swept under.
except that the rug is there.
I cant get rid of it.
and it will be there until I die.

Lord, take the rug away.

curls are a man's best friend now.

I see you there hanging on a tree

You bled and then you died and then you rose again for me

Now you are sitting on Your heavenly throne

Soon we will be coming home

Youre beautiful, you're beautiful;

"soon we will be coming home"

I love you Lord.

I know you have me in the right place,

and that you are with me always

but there are times when I just yearn to be with you.

to see your face. to hold your hand.

you are so gracious, oh sovereign God.

I am so in awe of you.

in love with my saviour

♥

fold those blankets right eh?

to get you, i need to attract you.
what attracts you?
what makes you want to actually get to know a person?
i hope its me.
i want it to be me.
this couldnt have come at a worse time.

your love never fails.

I am somewhat ashamed and, emabarassed that instead of trusting God to provide, I got worried and anxious that he wouldnt.

The Sitch: 3 girls, had planned a trip to New Zealand. one of them being myself. At first it was just to live there, we loved the country and wanted to visit it. But then it turned into something more. All of us went through trials. Concerning money, jobs, family, friends, trust, and ultimately faith. It is now just myself and another friend Britnee going on this journey. Melissa got an oppurtunity to work full time for a year at her job. a sign from God I suppose, I stumbled. you have a stool with 3 legs, its a stool. you have a stool with 2 legs, its not a stool. I wasnt sure I wanted to embark on this journey anymore. With questions such as how will I afford this? Will we have a place to stay once there? How will my parents react to this? How long do I stay? I let myself doubt God. Shame on me. A couple days ago, I watched a video blog of a person I know originally from Ontario, who is in Austrailia with a friend and living out God's purpose for them. I realized that I was blind to God's grace. He had provided me with a second job to save up money, an open schedule for this fall, and friends who are supportive. I had been planning on telling my parents around this time, but watching that video made me sure. This is what I want to do. So, I told them. I worried that they would not agree with this idea because it isnt education. But they both agreed that this is a really good idea, and would be very beneficial to me.

So, here I am, totally psyched that this September I am going to New Zealand. I am going to meet friends, and love God's Youth. I may be going for 3 months, or longer. It really depends how long they want us there for. All I know right now is that, I am amazed at God's amazing power.

this startted as a dream, and look where we are now?
now who can say God isnt real?
becoming a kiwi--
:)kylie

we should get jerseys, cause we'd make a good team

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slumberpartyinmybasementdoimakeyour heartbeatlikean808drumismyloveyour drug?

its such a rush. to not want to put my heart on the line again. to go out there and risk it all. part of me, is not wanting any form of relationship. which could very well be what i should be doing. staying away from the "b" word (boyfriend) but the other part of me, thrives on the rush i get when i flirt with a guy and its like i miss all the little things that come with having a boyfriend.
I know if i start anything i wont be free to flirt. to literally be free. but its always nice to have someone right? Dont worry. im not just going to pick someone off the street say "he looks decent" and then start something. I will put time and effort into making sure it would work out and that he seems right for me. I am just confused about it all. and sometimes certain guys just make me smile. whatever. time will tell, and God has his sneaky ways we know. When I am ready, he will make it happen :)

tatafornow♥

There is a girl named Lovely.

As all humans have, I have gone through my struggles. I have gone on the "roller coaster of doom" with relationships, friendships, family, God, you name it. And I truly believe that in order to get through said issues and struggles we need to have first and foremost a relationship with God, but as well a person we can rely on and have for when you just need to vent.
I am lucky to say that I happen to have many friends who I can rely on and call close. But one in particular has graduated. Britnee, my dearest Britnee. I would just like to thank you for everything, absolutely everything you have done for me these past 4 years. You are such an inspiration, and I really do admire you. I love you alot. I cant imagine going through the stuff I went through without you. I am able to tell you everything. thats a big deal. I am so proud of you. And I know you are capable of so much. You will change this world deary. I cant wait for it. I love you lots. today was fun :) and ps. i really do miss your old house. but.. materialistic things dont matter eh? haha.

love you forever and ever.
ky ;)